And he got up and followed him.
Jesus called us to follow him and we did follow, but not nearly so immediately and wholeheartedly as did Matthew. He continues to call us to follow him more closely, but we continue to hesitate and second guess his call. The way we experience encountering Jesus must be qualitatively quite different from the way Matthew experienced it. Jesus upended everything Matthew thought he knew about who he was and his place in the world. But somehow we don't receive the invitation from Jesus with similar power. We can see from Scripture that not everyone did. For some people the invitation was revolutionary and transformational. But others found reasons to ignore or reject it. It seems that we may be trying to straddle the issue, with one foot in and one foot out. We may not fully trust Jesus or his intentions if we believe too much of the world tells us about him. Is he really good? Does he really want want is best for us? Yet the hardest part of believing his call can sometimes be the fact that he would call us specifically. We believe ourselves to be unworthy of his love. We may wonder what of value we have to contribute to his Kingdom project.
The Pharisees saw this and said to his disciples,
"Why does your teacher eat with tax collectors and sinners?"
Jesus did not come to call those who were already worthy of him. He came to give us the grace to make us worthy. He did not come to call those already equipped, but rather to equip those whom he called. As Paul explained to the Ephesians, "he gave some as Apostles, others as prophets, others as evangelists, others as pastors and teachers, to equip the holy ones for the work of ministry, for building up the Body of Christ". But many of us put up a false pretense of worthiness and skill that prevent us from receiving all that Jesus has for us. We are like the Pharisees in this way. Even if we may recognize that our situation is imperfection and needs improvement we imagine our need to be mild and incremental. We don't realize that we stand in the same desperate need as any tax collector or sinner. We've been projecting this aura of competence because the world all but insists upon it. Unfortunately we often come to believe it to one degree or another We think that if we need Jesus at all we need him just a bit, in some measure, but that much of our lives are fine without him. Thus we try to slot him in to specifically religious segments of our schedules. But Jesus is not willing to play the role of our life enhancer. He wants to be our lord and our king. To experience this we may have to tear the band-aids off of our wounded hearts, revealing the full truth of who we are to him, so that we can receive the healing and transformation that he so longs to give us.
Those who are well do not need a physician, but the sick do.
We do need the healing hands of the divine physician in our own lives. We are doing ourselves a disservice when we pretend otherwise. But this does not apply only to ourselves. It means there are many people who are merely pretending, though perhaps they themselves believe, that they are fine, complete, needing nothing and no one. The more people insist on this the more suspicious the claim becomes. Obviously the point is not that we should attack them, shouting 'You're just as pathetic as the rest of us', or something like that. Rather we should be sympathetic and willing to put the invitation of Jesus in front of them even if they don't seem interested. They may not appear to be on the surface. But somewhere inside every person is interested. We are made to be so.
Not a word nor a discourse
whose voice is not heard;
Through all the earth their voice resounds,
and to the ends of the world, their message.






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